Testing times and Love...

I felt the need to write a blog today on my father. For a couple of weeks I have been having phone calls from his adoptive mother Kitty and she has been telling  me that she is struggling with my father. He was diagnosed with Huntington's disease a couple of months before me in 2012. As far as I was aware he was not diagnosed as symptomatic since 2012, however my adoptive has been saying for a while now that he has been growing worse. 

Before we knew about the HD I was already conscious that he has been struggling for a while now in his mind as he had become withdrawn, depressed and isolated but I hoped perhaps these were only very early symptoms of HD. Yet since 2012 his symptoms have progressed rapidly, during last year he has begun to show physical symptoms of chorea and has lost a huge amount of weight. I only know all this information because of what Kitty has told me over the phone. 

Since losing Nana (who I never got to meet) it seems that Dad has been getting worse in himself. Kitty doesn't know what to do with him or how to help him. He has unfortunately refused to go to the doctors so he is struggling without any help... 

I really feel today a great struggle within myself. This man who is called my father, a man I have never known, is gradually slipping away little by little. I unable to help him in any way, I am not allowed to see him or speak to him (these have been his wishes since I was born) and now more than ever I wish I could support him. 

1 Peter 4:8
"Most important of all, continue to show deep love for each other, for love covers a multitude of sins"...

Love covers everything and my love for my father will always be there...

John 3:16
"For God loved the world so much that He gave His one and only Son, so that everyone who believes in Him will not perish but have eternal life"...

God loved the world so much that He gave His only Son!!! What greater love can there be than that?! I know that even though I cannot reach my father myself and show him my love, I will pray to God to be with him always.I know that God loves my father and He will help him through his suffering. 

God has taught me something important today - "Three things will last forever - faith, hope, and love - and the greatest of these is love"...

I will always love you Dad and my prayers are with you <3

Growing in my faith...

Yesterday was the beginning of Lent and I was trying to think of some way that I could challenge myself to grow closer to God. At the beginning of 2014 I made it my New Year's Resolution that I would spend more time with God...So instead of giving up something for Lent I have decided to take something on which is this blog! I have very much enjoyed blogging our IVF/PGD journey, it has helped me to grow in my writing and to document every special moment. 

My intentions for this blog is to write at least once a week something I have learnt about in my walk with God...

"Jesus spoke to the people once more and said, "I am the light of the world. If you follow me, you won't have to walk in darkness, because you will have the light that leads to life." ~ John 8:12